And I'm back

I've gone missing but I'm back. This goes to show you that I haven't accomplish much on these past few weeks. I still haven't called the sponsors, my grades are really bad. I haven't made any new friends, etc. Thought I have done some little things here and there. I entered a contest. A writing contest. I didn't win, I didn't even got close to it but I did participate which makes a huge difference in my book. So that's my accomplishment of the past few weeks. Entering a contest and not winning it. 

Who would want to know about it?

My life is not very interesting. No boyfriend, no parties, my Facebook friendliest is a great exaggeration of reality and in fact I don't have that many friends. I moved from my hometown to a new big city when I was 15 and never looked back, now I'm still in that same big city but I keep looking for bigger and better things. I have changed quite a bit, I use to be an overachiever, school was easy and then I went online for the rest of the day, but you'll have to know that, that no longer fulfills me. I'm still looking for excitement and fell in a ready state of stagnation were I no longer fell like I'm moving forward and this is letting me in a weird stage of doing absolutely nothing. I'm afraid of taking chances, and I can't seem to put myself out there, and take action, in any situation, in anyway, I just can't. I can't enter a contest because I'm afraid I'll lose, I can't even look into an opportunity of any sort of thing since I'm afraid I won't be able to do it.

And you know why I hate it? Because I'm fighting against myself. So this is an attempt to stand up and take action. In this blog I'll write my weekly accomplishments, the things I achieve they can be small, like last week I went to a conference about Syria, that meant that I had to skip lunch time with my friends, but I see them almost every other day, and the conference really meant something to me so I went.

Small things can mean a lot to me, small things can make a really big difference. So this is what it is, a small thing in order for me to become the person I want to be.